Just what I needed.

I'm beginning to think I'm sliding into a "nature photographer" position. Nature is easy. It's still and doesnt break to cry or sneeze. My favorite part is the silence and time out that I get with God.

It's been crazy here latley and I've been fighting depression. I'm going to be so honest and just say it. I'm beat and worn down, I just lost a friend that so much of me no longer wishes to fight for and I'm in need of a minute or two.

But God, man, he just pours blessings all over this family and house and I have seen it. Money coming from no where, opportunities at random, and a job for mom. The last is quite possibly my favorite. While I enjoy my time with Melanie, I know that we're getting bored with each other. I have been making such an attempt to find her a play date, but it's not working. Do I smell?

When I lost my job, for a truly silly reason at 7 months to mention, my heart broke. I loved my job and I was happy. Most importantly, I was good at it. And then It was gone. With it, I lost my confedence and self esteem. What a bummer. But, God... and I'm going to give him all the credit, he saved me.

the next step.

We are trying to get miss Melanie off the beloved bottle. It's a feat. She, I believe, could care less, but we are addicted to how fast she takes her milk down and how simple it is at night. So, In our home, it's completley a crutch. But I'm trying.. okay?

Everyday, once or twice, whenever it comes to mind, I pass her sippy on to her and we try. It's getting easier. I believe... and then she just stops.

"Oh, it's not my bottle, no thank you, but good try, mom"

I'm defeated.

But this afternoon, as I'm sipping my favorite tea, It occurs to me, I know this, my mom prevailed... and so shall I.

So maybe not today, but one day, my little girl will sip her tea and I will be satisfied, knowing that I taught her this.